So today for some unknown reason Lauren Hill Circa the miss education of, is playing in my head

Everything is everything, what is meant to be will be, after winter, must come spring, change comes eventually………………………….

My session at the doc’s today was manly  a Q&A session. I was given a book by Mikes sister ‘EVERY THING YOU NEED TO KNOW, TO HELP YOU BEAT CANCER’. That book kind of scared me as one of the question I ended up asking the doctor was.

“So seams my cancer is hormone sensitive, this book said I should ideally be underweight for my height?”
she looked kind of concerned and said your well within the healthy weight range, you would have to be obese, and even then the levels are still quite low, you shouldn’t worry about that.

“Also most web pages/books/articles advocate a raw food, no dairy, no sugar & not a lot of meat diet, what about that?”
Yet again the studies are inconclusive at best.(I have read a lot about this too, and that’s my thought as well)

http://envirocancer.cornell.edu/factsheet/diet/fs33.dairy.cfm

I also feel, what the point of living longer if your miserable, and anyway I have enough issues with food, and now they are telling me I can’t have meat and cheese. I would literally have no “safe foods” left in my mind and everything other than berries would be bad.

I asked if there was anything I could do to stop any of my chemo side effects i.e. mouth ulcers. All I was told was to make a mouth wash out of -WARM WATER, -SALT, -BICARBONATE OF SODA
hum……….the same as when I got my tongue pierced all those years ago.

I have been told by a friend, whose mother is in chemo now, that chewing ice helps (man I’m going to be freezing with a MAJOR ice headache without the fun of the ice cream, dairy you know lol)….but seriously with the cold caps and the ice in my mouth, it’s going to be a freaking winter wonderland
in October.

Steroids, dum dum dum, fuck I don’t want to take these but they are meant to help apparently. I’m not impressed, so now I get to make myself sick for 6+ months and steroids too, “but I don’t wanna be any fatter”. There meant to stop me from feeling so sick and help with fluid retention…..I’m not so sure about this but we will find out.  My past state meant that I’m going to look like a middle age man, bald and fat without the mobs. Now just fat and my hair a little thinner.
Later that night we go to an Aquacise class. Poor Mike, he’s the only man under 55 there, but the class helps, it’s a challenge but its low impact so I’m able to flay my arms around in the water and it doesn’t hurt yays ………