Today is the greatest
Day I’ve ever known
Can’t live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow’s much too long
I’ll burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I’ve never known
Can’t wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I’ll tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stingshttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZCgG14g1vT0
As far as im concerned, one of the most iconic rifts ever, everyone has their own feeling about songs and what they mean to them, this takes me back to high school, the sentiment still remains the same for me, and you can always interpret songs the way you like, I think that shows the sign of someone who knows how to write. They may have a very different meaning, but for this song I can look at it now and relate it to me circa 2010, just as I did for a different reason in 1994.
This song busted through the screen at me last night at Amanda & Jurgens, lovely people, you know the type there just effortlessly cool, (Amandas reading this shaking her head I bet) but I always look at them and think ‘god I wish I could just be like that, carefree-ish’. I do know that this is most likely not 100% true, we all have our little things, but its nice that they feel this way to me.
So the songs of the 80′s, 90′s and the 00′s are coming to us thanks to Guitar Hero World Tour the Wii edition. I sing, sober even, it’s not flash to say the least, and Mike is giggling away in the proverbial corner, god its nice to see him smile, with that little kid vigour he used to have, and then me being me tells him to stop eating the dam candy blah blah blah. Yes it sounds bitchy but before all this shit went down, we were going running and palates and it was working, and I dont know, I guess I want to be able to do that now, but just getting up the stairs at the moment is a huge thing. So I hate to see my pretty doing that to himself because this dam storm should dam well be over soon and I dont ever want Mike to feel the way I do when I look in the mirror.
But in amongst me being a bitch with my no candy-ness and Jurgen being the next Axle Rose, and Mike giggling, I ask Amanda about her friend (it might be her cousin but my brain is mush so everyone is a “friend” atm) but the friend, shes round our age and riddled with bowel cancer. I feel so, god I dont know, selfish. Here’s me wining about god I feel so sick wah wah wah. Well at least I get the opportunity to live, I have the light at the end of the tunnel. But what the hell does she have, besides chemo, to help prolong her life, and sitting were im sitting im not sure what I would do. If I was offered that, the over whelming everything that the chemo does to you (everything = sickness, mental stress, physical changes, loss of your dam dignity) my heart just sinks when I think about what she has to deal with but good on her if she can fight and still at the end of it some what smile good on her.
And still im stuck with this over bearing feeling of, well what the fuk are you going to do. You know, with your life. You have been given the second chance, so how are you going to use it? At this point of time I dont know, which I say a lot at the moment. All I know right now is last night was the first time I felt some what normal, even with my belly being a dick and my head thumping, I laughed for the first time and meant it …….
So thanks guys you made me laugh, something so small yet so big and with that …………today is the greatest day I’ve ever known.
Ooh and a fun fact for today, aloe vera juice is very good for your tummy, buy it from the Asian shops (its way cheaper than the heath food shops), and for all you people getting your crunk on, water people, you need to get the toxins out of your body!